Outfit: | Tulip Back Woven Top via Forever21 (UNDER $15!) Jacket via 12East, similar here & here | Denim via ShopTiques | Necklace via Kendra Scott
As you can imagine (and if you’re a mom, you’ve been told many times over) that life changes SO much when you have a child. It’s not just your body, it’s everything else: your time, your patience, your understanding of other moms and their inability to make things happen as scheduled, your ability to keep a clean house, your ability to put yourself together everyday, your workout routine (or lack thereof), your sleep, your wardrobe, the look of your car, your nights out…anything I’m missing? haha. But really, everything changes. And, while this seems like it maybe be overwhelming, it’s not. While you’re now reconsidering ever giving birth, don’t doubt it. It changes you..in the best way possible. I’ve never had so much patience in my life and now find myself wondering what everyone is getting so worked up over on day to day demises. Are things really so impossible? The “omgahhh I drank too much last night” all sounds so ridiculous now. And while I’m certainly not downing all of those non-moms and single women (because TRUST ME..it was me.), I’m just saying it’s off my radar now. All of the drama, the fuss, the “why didn’t you call me?!”..well I’ve just got no time for that at all.
All the times in college I complained because I “worked soooo much” when I worked half of what I have since then and the times I “couldn’t go out” seem ridiculous now that I’m a mom. Now, I’m not saying I don’t complain now but I have worked more in my life since college than ever before. I’ve pushed myself harder than I’ve ever thought…but never quite as much as since I’ve had Grayson. And I’m definitely not saying my husband and I don’t still go out for a drink and to have a good time but you won’t see me complaining about any of it and I won’t take it for granted. I won’t take any of this for granted – this sweet baby and this life God has given us.
I recently left a job I’ve held near and dear to my heart for a few years now and it weighed on me for a while but seeing Grayson smile everyday and witnessing his little milestones has never felt more accomplishing. I learned so much from that opportunity that I’ll be forever grateful for – things that I can take with me in whatever path I choose. While I have no plans to be a stay at home mom, I do want to sit back, relax, and enjoy these early months of my baby boy’s life because I’ll never get them back. While I can be upset that I haven’t quite gotten back into my workout routine and I haven’t quite nailed down this dream of mine I’m working on, I can be thankful that I am able to enjoy these moments because I haven’t been out of a job since I was 16 (that’s 10 years! I’m getting old..)
I’ve never regretted any of my jobs because I have learned so much from them. If I have learned anything worth sharing, it’s that the job is never worth the life sacrifice. No job is ever worth putting your personal life on hold. I’ve learned to put down the phone, stop emailing, and take in the moments that I’ll actually remember. No money will ever be enough. When is your life worth more than the money you make? For me, Grayson is worth sacrificing the extra money. That jacket or handbag can wait.
This year, my resolution is simple: to take it all in. I plan on fulfilling a dream I’ve had since I was a little girl (more to come on that later!), enjoying our move to Lafayette, getting back into pre-baby shape, but most importantly…spending QT time with my sweet husband and baby boy and our families. And I promise, I won’t take this for granted and I sure as hell won’t regret it. I encourage you all to do the same.